In Memory of Grayson James Gonser
In Memory of Grayson James Gonser
Born into Eternity — August 1, 2026
7 lbs 1 oz • 20½ inches
Nothing can fix our loss of you. But knowing you're in God's hands. Needed in Heaven for things we do not understand. Not having to know the evil of this world.
Your momma and I will miss you SO SO SO SO much. Your emptiness will be felt until we both are with you again and finally get to say hello and how much we love you!
You have your momma's cheeks and my feet. Everything about you was absolutely perfect. God sure did do an amazing job on you son. Your brothers and sister sure are missing you right now too. They had bets on who was going to be bigger. You or them.
To my beautiful woman. My rib. My one true love. Bri, I love you so much. You took an interview with a boy and turned him into a man. Showed that man Jesus and helped me get saved. You captured my heart with the very first hello and smile. Then told me to come back tomorrow because you had "Big Bosses in today"! That all lead up to you saving me from myself, falling deeper in love than a man could ask for and having a family only every man dreams of. I know this pain hurts. Oh how i know. But i will always love and cherish every single moment with you. Hold you when you are down. Stand beside you when you win and always be here to catch you when you fall. Look to god as your foundation. me as the concrete floor our children as the light in our home and you as the love of it all. You've always been true. so i shall be too. for god has several pieces or our hearts. and youll always have the rest of mine. I love you Brianna.
To every person. To every soul. Any mother and any father. Every sister and every brother. Every auntie and every uncle. Every grandma and every grandpa. Know this. As i write this my heart pours out. not only for my son. But for you. Every person that has loss. loss of a child friend mother brother anything. My heart hurts with yours. All the why's, how's and what could I have done's. It feels like fire burning through my chest, a pain so deep and unbearable I can hardly see to write this. My bones ache and my minds racing a billion lightyears an hour. It feels like this is all a dream and i just need to wake up from my nap after a long days work. Like, SOMEONE HIT ME! WAKE ME UP! SOMEONES GOD BIG JOKES! But its not a joke. It's realer than real. We are all going to be changed forever. Nothing we do or say can change the time we wait. Our child is gone. yet we can do nothing. We feel helpless. Weak. Overstimulated. Why is everything moving so fast? I lost my child What is the Rush! Your entire world just stopped. Every emotion is valid. EVERY FEELING IS REAL! If you need to scream, SCREAM! I JUST DID AHHHHHHHHHH! DO IT! SO what DO IT! Cry big guy! Let it out lil lady! I LOVE YOU ALL SO MUCH! Remember, you're not alone. my heart goes out to all of you! It might be shattered, but one day all the pieces will be together. Just not today. Today i cry along side you. I HUG YOU through a screen. I feel your pain. I know your hurt. and i have your anxiety. BUT, I Know my son is right there with your child, doing huge things with Jesus in heaven. Hand in hand Sing dancing and waiting to take us up that stairway to those golden gates when Jesus calls us all home. May you remember these words when times are dark.
2 SAMUEL 12:23 "FOR I WILL GO TO HIM. But, HE will NOT RETURN TO ME." (I put this one in here to let you know our feelings are valid and go back to old times. remembering that even then. WE WOULDN'T have been ALONE.)
PSALM 34:18 " The Lord is CLOSE to the BROKENHEARTED and SAVES those who are CRUSHED IN SPIRIT!" (Look to God to soften the pain, Remember he's always with you. Even in these dark days.)
Revelation 21:4 "He WILL WIPE EVERY TEAR from THEIR EYES. There will BE NO MORE DEATH or MOURNING or CRYING IN PAIN, for the order of things has passed away." (I found God to have given me the strength to write this. and to try to help you)
I'll never be able to tell you why, how, or what you could have done. But I know God and all of our children are watching me. Guiding my words and my heart. To help as many of you as I can get through this too. Yes our hearts are heavy and weak. I know. and i know my grammar isn't grade A++ hahahaha but I Hope this helped you. I hope You feel Grayson James Gonser and your child with God in your heart right now. Telling you MOM and you DAD. Jesus has me. I'm safe and its so beautiful here! We cant wait to see you again!
From my family to yours. I Love You All SO SO SO SO Much! I'm Sorry for everything you are going through. Just know you're not alone. You have us in your hearts and you're in ours!
To my beloved son. Oh Little man Oh baby boy. My heart my heart my heart. I never heard you cry, i never felt your grip on my hand. Why didn't you pull my beard son. Smack me or something i don't know either. But what i do know is you my son. Grayson you are a perfect little baby boy. Mommas boy for sure and daddies big man! Please know we love you and that that love will never fail or fade out. You know god better than I do. I bet he is amazing. Know I dont hate him for this. But i really do not like him right now and you can tell big man i said that. but i do love him. just like i love you. and i wont know why until i see your beautiful face again. but know i love you and mommy does too! Make sure you give Bentley and Keaton a huge hug from all of us down here! Yes all of us! Their dads too! And make sure they are watching over their dads too like you do me lil fella! And Go find your grandpa Carlos! He's the greatest man I've ever known! He will treat you Perfectly! Son i wish i had just one more second with you. One more moment to kiss and rock you in my arms. Just to hold you and feel your body on mine again. But ill hold you in my heart for all eternity times forever! Yes same goes for your momma as you know she is my light and bright. I will cherish her forever. Thank you Grayson James Gonser. Thank you my son for giving me hope light and wisdom. Thank you for pushing daddy to do better things in his life than hurt. Thank you my boy. Daddy loves you so Freaking much! So. Until i hold you in my arms again. Be good and kind up there. Share your toys and wash your hands. I love you so so so so much. I got momma. She loves you too! Now go rest high on that mountain. Because your work on earth is done my son. We Love you so much
This store exists because of you, Grayson. You are our heartbeat — always.